Mormon Lives Matter

I'm really that Austen is texting and detailing his trigger moments and recognizing them and confiding in me and his wife and surrending them. Dallyn so happy he went to another SA zoom mtg today and told me about working the steps and asked about a 1st step inventory. Tony - daily calls workout shares and going to text me his writings.  Kent - a wonderful share about the 'right' to lust/resent and him recognizing a time and space he is triggered and choosing something else and calling me. 

I'm training for a triathlon and for me the swimming is the hardest part. Just like our addiction the Temptation is always surrounding you. And sometimes you feel like you need to rest and gasp for air or you'll die, just like a lust hit. Instead calling a group member and surrending it up gives you rest and air and often it seems miraculous how the need to lust dissapates. 

We had a discussion/ argument. Want to work on being friends and talking easy again. I'm going to try to journal about Renae and remember the fun things and hilarious things we've done together. 2011 Road trip to Lake Powell.  Sleeping on the top of the houseboat, we wake up hear a huge Murph and Andy's like "ducks out"  Hiking ding and dang I put one of the young women's leaders on my shoulders and walked.  Teresa was soo whiney. 

One of the most subtle and effective tools he is using among us today is the convincing of some that they have arrived, they have reached their destination, they have earned a rest, they aren’t needed anymore, they are out of danger, they are beyond temptation, and they can take pride in their accomplishments.

2 Kings 18: 3-6 And broke in pieces the bronze serpent that Moses had made: Numbers 21:1-9 describes how during a time of a plague of fiery serpents upon the whole nation, Moses made a bronze serpent for the nation to look upon and be spared death from the snake bites. This statement in 2 Kings tells us that this particular bronze serpent had been preserved for more than 800 years and had come to be worshipped as Nehushtan. Hezekiah, in his zeal, broke in pieces this bronze artifact and put an end to the idolatrous worship of this object. i. This bronze serpent was a wonderful thing – when the afflicted people of Israel looked upon it, they were saved. It was even a representation of Jesus Christ, as Jesus Himself said in John 3:14-15. At the same time, man could take something so good and so used by God and make a destructive idol out of it. ii. In the same way, sometimes good things become idols and therefore must be destroyed. For example, if the true cross of Jesus or His actual bu...

2 Kings 17:13-15 They followed idols, became idolaters : The NIV translates this, “ They followed worthless idols and themselves became worthless .” The NASB has it, “ They followed vanity and became vain .” i. “The original is more accurate at this point: ‘They worshipped emptiness and became empty.’ The word here is  hebel  meaning ‘air,’ ‘delusion,’ or ‘vanity.’ The idea is that they became like the gods they worshipped. They bowed down to nothingness and became nothing.” (Dilday)

Without God, I can't; Without me, God won't He honors our agency  Without faith and commitment God won't change us He will not take our agency. We have to be on board. He will direct us and strengthen us through his grace, but we must will it.  I have found that usually When I am praying for something and not receiving it the problem is one of two things; either it's not God's will or I am not sincere in willing it. (Usually it's a combination of the two).